“So girls, please make her comfortable.“
And there was this new girl in our class, shy, quite and umm… not describe-able. She was not someone who you could read easily. Speaking about how she looked, she was pretty, TALL which made me and my best friend, lets say, a bit jealous. We were used to being called the tall ones and now this new girl, make take away our position. Well after a more detailed evaluation about her height, I was shielded, I was still taller but not my bestie. I din’t like her now, I don’t really know why. Maybe because she appeared to be better than my best friend in some way.
That day we had a function in our auditorium and by the time we reached there, I was feeling pathetic. The new girl was bent on taking away my best friend! Okay! it was official now, I HATE HER!
Days passed and my hatred din’t grow infact I started to like her now. I figured out there was so much similar between me and her. She was a friend I could tell things to without having to rethink. She would understand. I din’t have to prepare a speech before I went to talk to her, I could tell her anything I feel and she would totally understand the many, many silent meanings behind my words. It felt good that untold feelings were deciphered without mistakes. And by the time I realized, we were best friends now.
She is one person who I can’t correlate anyone with. Very moody, fun to be with, hard to be interpreted, complicated and very very different. She calls herself weird, and all these things, I like about her. But I never was able to solve her, which made frustrated me.
One year had passed, she was my best friend now and I am supposed to be able to know her inside out, but that was not happening. Something was missing and I wanted to figure out what. By the time I could contemplate about this, other stuff happened which hit me hard. I was going through a lot of things when she was the only one who stood by me. And in this time, which we spent together, we discovered so much about ourselves and each other. We had become so close, that now we din’t even have to say one fourth of what we wanted to convey to each other. Everything seemed to be understood without words to express them. I was finally able to decipher her.
And just like after every day is a night, after a great, happy, smooth going friendship, we had pitfalls. Things were going on which we din’t like and we were not ready to solve it too. Rather we were just ignoring it. Neither she nor I wanted to take the first step towards solving the problem, if there was a problem. We din’t even know whether there was a problem or a misunderstanding or anything of that sort. We had just stopped talking and had no solid reason to support such an action.
My interpretation: Its happening maybe because I was not able to solve her problems and neither was she able to solve mine. Maybe she is busy with her own life, especially with so much going on, maybe her priorities had changed. Yea, her priorities had changed and it was high time for me to realize and accept that. Little girl times were over now. I had hard facts to accept.
Her interpretation: Why should I be hanging around with other girls when I have my best friend? She is not even talking with me. For some reason I could blame all this on her. She was not there for me when I needed her, so she should be the one apologizing right? I needed her and she couldn’t see it. Is this all so hard for her to understand?
The actual fact: Both of us were frustrated with shit going on in our lives and took it out on each other. As simple as that. Frustration. Thats all. We can take out our frustration only on the people who we love and thats exactly what we did. Seeking solutions for problems, in wrong places, we ended up blaming each other as the root cause of the problems. If only we had the patience to analyse what was going on and what the solution actually was, we would have faced this, lets say a rough time more smoothly. But what the heck, life din’t come with a manual!
And so, being back in this craziness, still having loads and loads of shit to deal with, from strangers to absolute sistas, we know better that to blame each other. And we also know that all it takes to bring the sun out of the clouds is a phone call and the usage of all the abusive words you know and ending with “Now cut all this crap and lets be normal again! I love ya!”
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